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[Lily Holland]

Lily. Lily. My name is Lily. Crystal had to remind herself that was her new name now on multiple occasions. At least it was making living at camp a little more bearable than before. She was doing a pretty good job of avoiding Ethan, but once in awhile she'd catch a glimpse of him… She had to do it. It was for his sake. She was dangerous. She didn't need her cousin to remind her of that.


She sat by the edge of the lake as she picked up pebbles beside her and tossed them into the water. She had to do it for his sake, but it didn't mean she had to like the outcome of it one bit.

[ridley boyce]

Where the f**k had Lily run off to? Ridley hadn't seen her since they got back, it was like her cousin just vanished. Ridley got her stuff all set up in her cabin, happy to have her space back. Sort of. Some little brat had taken her normal bunk so Ridley had to go through the process of kicking the kid out. But, a cabin counselor had caught her and made Ridley give the spot back. So, Ridley found a new spot, but she was seething.

She left the cabin soon after, in search of Crystal- no, Lily. She found her moping by the lake. Tossing pebbles. Ridley rolled her eyes, crossing over to her and standing beside her. "Hey, Lily."

[Lily Holland]

She thought of him despite how many times she tried not to. The boy was almost like a permanent fixture that she couldn't acknowledge anymore. He didn't remember her, so she tried to do her best to forget all about him. Except, it wasn't working in the slightest. She sighed loudly in defeat as she picked up a pebble and threw it into the lake with a little more force than usual. It made a satisfying plunk into the water and that made Lily smile for a moment.

Until she heard her cousin's voice and how her middle name just sounded so foreign on her tongue. Her smile faded as all those memories flooded back. Watching Ridley in the cabin chanting those words that made Ethan forget. She shook her head as she tried to get rid of those thoughts as she looked up at her. "Hey, Rid," she said as she tried to force a smile. "You came to throw pebbles too?"

[ridley boyce]

Lily shook her head before looking up, and Ridley could guess why. She was thinking about HIM, most likely. When Lily greeted her, Ridley gave her the best smile she had. "Awe, Lils," she was fine with getting used to a new nickname for her cousin for now, "I have nothing to throw rocks for. And neither should you," she said firmly, sitting on the ground beside Lily.

"You really have got to stop moping around, kid," she said, her voice demanding but somehow sweet. She was good at that, good at making it seem like she was the good guy, helping THEM while she got what SHE wanted. It was a well rehearsed skill.. mostly used on Crystal over the years.

[Lily Holland]

Of course Ridley would show up when she was thinking of him. She was the one who convinced her that she was too dangerous for Ethan. Ethan. She hadn't thought his name in a while. She was about to throw another pebble before she stopped and gripped it in her hand.

She had to stop moping around. Ridley always spoke the truth. “You're right,” Lily said as she put the pebble back on the ground. She wanted to hate Ridley for what she did to Ethan and the aftermath, but the only person she could hate was herself for agreeing to it. But it was all for the better. For his sake.

[ridley boyce]

Of course she was right, Ridley knew that. But she had to act sweet, for Crystals sake. For Crystal to keep trusting her so they wouldn't be separated again. Ridley moved forward, bending down and placing a hand on her cousins shoulder. "So, let's do something that'll make you feel better," she soothed, lifting her hand to gently stroke Crystals hair. "Perhaps a nice hike? Or maybe some... arts and crafts?" Ridley didn't really care of that stuff, but it might make Crystal happy. After all, they had come back to camp and may as well participate in camp... things.

[Lily Holland]

Would she ever feel better? Lily didn't know as she looked down at her hands in her lap. But she had to trust Ridley. Things would get better eventually, right? And that would only take time and maybe a little bit of a distraction. She looked back up at Ridley as she tried to suggest things that would make her feel better. She knew there was only one person who would make her feel better, but he was out of the picture now. "I do like the arts building," Lily said with a bit of a shrug as she moved to get up off the ground. "Maybe I can make another friendship bracelet... or ten," she said with a weak smile.

[ridley boyce]

Lily finally looked up at her and Ridley gave an encouraging smile. "Arts building it is! We can make a hundred bracelets if that's what you want," she promised, chuckling and reaching out to offer her hand to her cousin. She started to lead the way to the Arts building, skipping a bit and turning to walk backwards so she could face her cousin. "Just gotta make those friends to give them to, Lils. You got anyone who you want to give them to?" she was sure that Lily was just keeping to herself, as per usual these days. Psshh.

[Lily Holland]

A hundred bracelets? That would keep Lily's brain from wandering too much and keep her from thinking about Ethan. She really didn't like arts and crafts, but she was doing this for Ridley's sake. She knew she was worried about her since they got back from their impromptu trip. Lily took Ridley's hand up and allowed herself to be dragged over to the arts and crafts building. She raised her eyebrows when Ridley asked who she was going to give them. Besides Ridley, Ethan was the closest to her. Not like she exiled her friends because of love, but she didn't have that many friends to begin with. She sighed as she shook her head. "Only you and I'm pretty sure you don't want a hundred bracelets."